heart broke

my heart broke when she say she cant make it for the date
yea its okay
i guess god do this for a reason ...
whether she meant for me or not is up to god now

Day before cny

So tomorrow im leaving KL..
going to a brand new world ..
bye guys..
just joking lol
tomorrow going to KELANTAN yay
i kinda miss it
i mean , who wont miss it , its like the best fresh air
my shirt i think would be enuf gua ,
hope i reach my desti safely ,

She agreed to have a date
hahahaa
im kinda happy
but cannot too over
cuz she doesnt say she like me ? right ? lol no?
watever hahhaah
BYE BLOGGY

2014 1st

I come to bloggy whenever i feel down
yeah so i am here now haha
so its like 3 months i never renew my diary

so its a new 2014 ,
its awe.....so... me?
nah
its just the same
i guess u can say : ITS TIME U HAVE TO GROW UP
well ,
i m 18 now !! haha
never thought of this day would come for me to decide something for my life
yeah its tougher than study
say real ,
i dont know what to study at all
to be more specific ,
im clueless n aimless for my future

Im kinda worry cuz im feeling my result wont be so good actually
ppl would be proud of their so call *flying colour * result
i would just hold a dull paper LOL
I hope i know what i aiming for in my life haha

So , one day this girl ,
i had crush on her? lol idk
feeling gua ..
i ask bout what kind of book she read
cuz i like read story book too , i mean fiction , yeah like percy jackson like that , all sort lahh ~
but love story is the best i guess ,
its addictive awesome , no words to describe
she introduce me to this book
"What's After SPM"
ouh its rly a good book
i recommend a lot for those who dont know what to do n read through their story haha
although i havent finish reading it yet = = ... akward

so , recently i think i just rly forget bout my crush last time ,
it took 4 months to forget ,
a rly long time for me haha
but nvm , at least i tried to forget it
n i did it ,
im always a guy that look tough outside n never in the inside of me .
im sucks in holding up my feeling or hold my tears .
If i wan to cry , i would just cry
please world , theres no such thing , *man cannot cry* uhhhhh
that badass
cry doesnt create for womans only okay
its a gift from god for us to release our feel

N now i had crush on this girl which introduce me this book haha
i dont realize it actually
i keep refresh twit or fb to search for notification ,
then i know something is not right here haha
so i know i had crush on her already
but she dont know
nah its okay , i know she act me as a old fren :)
but its okay,  be tough !

so new year coming soon ,
wish u all chinese out there
chin chang lin long din dong ,
XIN NIAN KUAI LE
hahahhaha racist ass

Wish my road ahead will be easier from now on .

Fren 2

My biggest fear is not losing love ,
is loss a fren .
Yess , its true i cant let go much of you
but im trying my best ..
sure u oso know the feeling rite for lving someone so long then try struggling to survive without it .
but it not a big deal
Fren its all i got then family
Money ? what use of money if doesnt use it with fren rite?
spend on urself?
can imagine eating ice cream alone in the shopping mall?
to me , friends are my precious
i rly do a lot stuff for my fren but they do nothing for me , its okay
i not making fren for repaying debt
i asking for fren becuz i nid u when i need it lol (wth im writing ) wtv
Yea we cant be couple , im okay with that
no yuan fen , i cant fight that .

Fren really mean a lot to me ,
its not a thing that u can simply buy at 7-eleven store ,
just barge in n ask ,
one fren pls
it doesnt come this way ..
it take times n hardship

I had a bestfren
his name was chee hwee
yea , he a little away from me
its ok actually
i can say if i were him , i would do the same , but not too much la
girlfriend yeah ,
girl.. friend = =
watever lol
but when i in tough situation , he would know straight away
idk how he do that but he did it o.o
dunno what line , probably not digi

so i just lost 2 precious fren ,
i just wan we back like always
yeah im sorry what i done
i cant reversed back , but i can make thing right again once more
just give me chance to do it will u ?

Fren

This week probably the worst ..
I still dont know how the heck a frens can treat me like that
they dont even know how i felt ?

kay .. this is what happen
I planned to do explorace with bc society since last two weeks
all went okay until someone in my class tell the class
about the chemistry explorace will be held
so he told : esok pukul 1.30pm
i was shock ok nvm , then i went to find teacher to discuss
i ask teacher whether teacher can adjust the time or not ..
if not a lot ppl wont come , n scare the explorace will clash
i mean like just discuss hoping teacher can chg the time.
that teacher was nice . she say okay , no problem
then i was relieved
so i went back to class then told bout the chemistry explorace ditundakan.
guess wth he say : why ? why u so selfish one , etcc.... i very dissapoint in u
told me like that
wtf? i just adjusting the time
after finish my explorace then u all go to ur so noble explorace la
they insist wan to make the same time
then dont care me , straight go find teacher .
the whole row where i sit stand up n walk away
whole row , can u imagine that fck
fck frens
i dare to say this
fck u , yeah i almost cry
I hope my fren support me during club activities for koko
but never once they help
always say : useless president , dunno how do thing
well shit , can i make perfect thing without the help of other
can a table stay still without the stand
no rite?
i cant believe my own fren did this to me

after come back from meeting teacher
they told the class the time will be the same
i got so sad nvm . i just accept the fact they just not my fren , even my bestfren did liek that
this week i seldom talk to them , i dont even mix them , most of the time sit behind with malays ,
well yeah , they always good to me
after that when explorace ,
oni 9 ppl join my explorace , n others dunno go where
n the bc society are about 50 ppl
what ppl would think bout me?
useless , no leadership
fck leadership if theres no one supporting

i jsut realize they r just faking infront of me
when i have the goods , they treat me so well
when i did something against them , turn away
wow.. what kind of frenship is this ..
really broke my heart

n .. im sorry teacher
i ponteng most of ur class
but this time i didn mean to
i really woke late
i hope u forgive me

9.4.2013

This few weeks John wall getting stronger n stronger <3

Hmm .. this few day very tired after school
dunno why .
must be the side effect from the camp xD (excuse)
lololol

This video make me laugh till die
Javale mcgee dumb plays

7.4.2013

Woah , i finally remember my email .
 I kinda forgot it lol Just came back from camping .
 It was really nice thought . seriously fun like hell .
Jokes really make my stomach pain OMG
 there were once when during the nightwalk.
I thought i dont dare cuz since small i scare of dark n bugs especially cockroaches LOL but i managed to pass it lahhh ..
hahahahhaa cuz its not that scary got lahh , kena shock when a guy beside suddenly scream : wahh ..... wahhh !
it was really unexpected lololol , but other all very obvious one hahahhaha .
it was really nice experience N then haih
i kinda miss playing basketball dunno why i felt down when playing basketball nowadays
maybe cuz the keramat match get champion but oni felt down i didnt even contribute anything .
got la.. only 1 block . boxscore to remind myself :

 pts : 0 fg : 0/3 ast : 0 reb : 0 block:1 thats all ..

just thats all. i dont mind coach letting me jsut 5 min on court cuz i didnt even show my potential or maybe just dont have
 for starter , all oso have experience .
I always get mad when someone tell me : wah , hou bu oso can get medal i seriously will . but i try forget it lahh .
i not going to join daerah match anyways . i will feel down again 1 . anyway the team dont even nid me oso de .
 luckily i really satisfied with my play in titiwangsa 3 on 3 match really play well lahh , score quite lot i think , didnt count though , but assist more but
Heng Fatt really score a lot .
i dont know how the hell he score defender right in his face still score really reach his potential le . win 2 match lose 2 match .
 got 1 match really shouldnt lose la.. my fault haih all wearing same shirt i really see wrong person then pass to him omg.. then he score zzzz...

but nvm we play ok Going to study April dy 7 more month to go